SPIRITUALITY
Here we attempt to convey some of the key elements that marked Cristiana's spiritual journey. First, we find her testimony on the importance of Consecration to Our Lady in her life, then we introduce her closest friends on the spiritual path, and finally, we have some excerpts from her personal spiritual diary.
The References Heaven Gives Us
"Behind are the memories of a young woman lost in the world, lost in a society where her best moment and time of life was when she was part of the Charismatic Renewal and the group Friends of Jesus. I almost wanted to become a nun, but the devil did his thing and dragged me into the world where I was contaminated. Now I follow the path back to my father and mother on earth and in Heaven."
September 23, 2022 - My Consecration to Our Lady
Tomorrow, the 24th, is the renewal of my consecration to Our Lady.
It was the best thing I've ever done in my life. I can't even put into words how much this consecration acted in my soul, my heart, and how much Heaven revealed itself, showing me a glimpse of what I can and might want to aspire to: Heaven!
That state of the soul in love and God that no human can understand, see, or feel, because only after physical death and the abandonment of this body heavy as lead and sick as a plague, will we be able to hear the yearnings of Heaven with the ears of our soul. Until then, we cannot imagine the love that awaits us.
"Friends from Heaven"
Saint Thérèse of the Child
Jesus (Saint Thérèse of Lisieux)
Canonization: May 17, 1925
Venerable Sister Lucia
Recognized as Venerable by Pope Francis in 2023
"I prefer to be inspired by the lives of my friends in Heaven: Saint Thérèse, Padre Pio, Sister Lucia... I want to be a saint."
Padre Pio of Pietrelcina
Canonization: June 16, 2002
“Today I read that you wrote to your spiritual daughter that it is better to suffer on earth than in purgatory. Indeed, you are right. Your words soothe the pain in my chest. Thank you for not giving up on me.”
Saint Carlos Acutis
Canonization: Septembre 7, 2025
"We should only ask God for the desire for holiness" (Carlo Acutis).
"Carlo Acutis, at 15, leaves us with these lessons that enraptures me and
brings me back to my insignificance."
"Parts of her spiritual diary"
Yesterday I read a quote by Chiara Petrillo, "Jesus, I don't understand, but I accept." I found this quote perfect, because sometimes I don't understand, and sometimes I don't accept. I needed these words. I think I'm preparing myself for the coming months.
I've mended my heart, made peace with myself, with others, and cried a lot.
“Today I know I can choose! Before, I lived according to my disordered passions and impulses, because I didn't know I could choose. Today, being able to choose, I choose Christ.”
August 17, 2022
At night: I want to live the little time left that I have in Your praise. What can I do to glorify You? This body of mine, sick with sin... what can I do for my King? My Lord? My Love? What am I doing here when I should be on my way to meet You? To fall asleep with love for You. Ah! If I had known that this is and always has been My Love. I would have surrendered myself to You... but You allowed me to live in sin, to come face to face with the enemy... But I returned to You. I want to die in You. To live for You. You who speak to me through the flowers and plants that You make reborn in my garden. You who lived 33 years, You who live in me. Jesus, I in You, You in me.
August 31, 2022
Demon that screams "See, He has abandoned you!" No! He never abandons me! It was I who was bad to Him; but His love is unconditional and this suffering is to purify me! So that I can reach Heaven!
September 1, 2022
My cancer is my highway to Heaven. My cancer is my friend, for only through it will my soul be saved. I want to hold hands with my cancer. Tell it, "Let's go together toward eternity."
Oh my God, how I love You! My Jesus, I in You and You in me.
"But I can't do nothing, I just have to accept it. I have no other way, no other option. I have to surrender myself to You and pass on the message to others that I am well because I am in Your hands, in the hands of Your Mother, in the hands of the Saints who support me, and I couldn't be in better hands."
September 6, 2022
7:53 AM
I will not give up my cross. I will not give up my path. Jesus, I will not give up on You. Just as You did not give up on Your Cross, on carrying it on Your back to then nail you to it. Even You were helped by Simon of Syrene. Thank you, Lord, for the people who help me carry my inner and outer cross.
8:30 PM
Letter to Padre Pio
I would have loved to have met you! I would have loved to be your spiritual daughter. Now I imagine myself as your spiritual daughter, reading the letters you wrote to your spiritual daughters, and imagining you writing to me.
I do what you ask: pray the rosary every day.
Pray always.
"Forty-two years of a life wasted.
They should have been 42 years of praise, of spreading your word."
"How do you live knowing you're going to die?" This is a question that has been haunting me for the past year. I often ask myself this existential question. Now, as I ate lunch, an answer whispered in my heart: "How Jesus lived!"
October 16, 2022
October 26, 2022
Jesus, I was meditating on people not understanding suffering and most people not understanding the pleasure of suffering for You.
I think, however, that my explanation is simple, but it makes sense to me. Perhaps it makes sense to others too, helping to simplify things. When a parent sees a child suffering, the first thing they think is, "Why him and not me?" When a daughter or son sees a parent suffering, the first thing they think is, "How can I ease their pain?" or, often, "I'd rather suffer in their place," and so on in relationships of unconditional love.
Now, You were the one who suffered the most in the world. It seems obvious to me, knowing that You suffered and still suffer, to say to You, "Let it be me, not Him," and even more so knowing that You did it for us, for me. It seems logical and automatic to my heart to want to take You down from the cross and be the one nailed in agony for my sins. This is the language of love: suffering. Wanting to suffer for You, with You, because I love You. And if my pain serves to free me from purgatory, so much the better!
"I suffer for love of You and also for the purging of my soul. That is why I consider suffering a great blessing. Of course, the wonder of suffering can only be understood in You, with You, because the world will never understand. But I am no longer of the world, I am only in the world."
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